1000 Mile Mom

It's not just a goal… it's a lifestyle adjustment!

Day 54: May 21, 2013- Swimsuits and self confidence

on May 21, 2013

Day 54: 7.03 miles logged, 587.85 miles to go- Was pleasantly surprised how much easier my five mile hilly run went earlier tonight than my attempt from less than a week ago. Makes me more confident that the long run I’m planning to tackle on SAT should go smoother than I had hoped and that I might actually be able to run up all of Halleluiah Hill in less than two weeks. On a personal note, I think today was the first time that I have ever walked into a fitting room not absolutely terrified. I hate trying on clothes, but I was actually a little excited about finding a new swimsuit for our Holiday World trip on FRI. I found a cute one in a size I have never worn before, and for the first time in a long time, I looked at myself in that three way mirror and for once had a sense of peace. I have struggled with self-confidence and body image for years, but I am blessed to have an amazing husband and true friends who love me for the person on the inside. So while it’s really nice to be at my fittest body shape in my entire life, it’s more important to me that I am healthy and happy. Taking off the weight isn’t so much about being thin as it is about living a long and fruitful life with Bob and the kids as well as my family and friends. I am tremendously blessed, and I think the smile on my face when I caught site of myself in that mirror today reflected the joy in my heart. It’s kind of fun, too, to see the outer reflection of myself catching up with the inner me…  P.S. I’d like to give a shout-out to my friend Tony for his kind words the other day. I haven’t seen him in a while, and it was nice that he noticed the difference since I’d seen him last! I’m putting myself through a grueling physical challenge by trying these 1000 miles in 6 months (a schedule that I am trying to bump up to possibly 4.5-5 months because of a potential late summer timing conflict- anyone else trying this, I highly recommend stretching it out over a full year!!!!!), so it was nice to hear that the hard work is paying off!

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